In the last week or so, I’ve received positive health news. I know, it took me a while to believe it, too. My bloodwork has improved, indicating that hopefully this treatment is eradicating the cancer cells zooming around in my blood. I also learned that my heart function, an organ…

It has been over a week since my first treatment of Enhertu and I’m still not quite 100%. This past weekend was particularly rough, with me having very little energy and a lot of tears. Part of the issue, I think, was my heart medication which was lowering my blood…

I had my first new treatment this past Monday and just woke up from a three hour nap. I am not sure if it is the chemo causing the fatigue or the fact that I didn’t sleep so well last night, but I’ll take it. Sleeping gives my body a…

When something bad happens to you, you often look around for an explanation. There’s a lot of “this isn’t your fault” talk in the cancer community but as someone who strives to understand the why of the universe, that kind of thinking can feel dismissive. …

These thoughts have been weighing on me for awhile so I thought maybe if I got them down, I would be free of them. Here’s hoping. When it is time, when my treatments run out, when my body has had enough, even if my spirit hasn’t, I have a few…

What’s next I just re-read my last entry and boy, was that rambling. It barely scratches the surface of the last few months, which of course, bled into the holidays which can be difficult enough in a good year. I tried to enjoy my time, tried to banish the thoughts…

I can only describe the last three months of my life as “too much.” Too much time spent in the hospital, too much time spent waiting for scans and then even more time waiting for the results. I came back from my amazing trip in Italy to stable scan results…

I haven’t written on here in a long time. I’m just back from three weeks in Italy, which was an amazing trip full of laughs and beautiful scenery but also a fair amount of challenges. I don’t think I can adequately describe all the feelings that came up during the…

Sitting here with my knee elevated, ice pack in place, trying to address what I hope is a flare up of arthritis and not something more serious in my right knee. I desperately want to trade in the right side of my body for a new one. It’s where all…