Jan 19Side EffectsIt has been over a week since my first treatment of Enhertu and I’m still not quite 100%. This past weekend was particularly rough, with me having very little energy and a lot of tears. Part of the issue, I think, was my heart medication which was lowering my blood…3 min read3 min read
Jan 11New TreatmentI had my first new treatment this past Monday and just woke up from a three hour nap. I am not sure if it is the chemo causing the fatigue or the fact that I didn’t sleep so well last night, but I’ll take it. Sleeping gives my body a…3 min read3 min read
Jan 7ConfessionsWhen something bad happens to you, you often look around for an explanation. There’s a lot of “this isn’t your fault” talk in the cancer community but as someone who strives to understand the why of the universe, that kind of thinking can feel dismissive. …2 min read2 min read
Dec 31, 2022When it is time.These thoughts have been weighing on me for awhile so I thought maybe if I got them down, I would be free of them. Here’s hoping. When it is time, when my treatments run out, when my body has had enough, even if my spirit hasn’t, I have a few…2 min read2 min read
Dec 27, 2022What’s nextWhat’s next I just re-read my last entry and boy, was that rambling. It barely scratches the surface of the last few months, which of course, bled into the holidays which can be difficult enough in a good year. I tried to enjoy my time, tried to banish the thoughts…1 min read1 min read
Dec 21, 2022Too. Much.I can only describe the last three months of my life as “too much.” Too much time spent in the hospital, too much time spent waiting for scans and then even more time waiting for the results. I came back from my amazing trip in Italy to stable scan results…4 min read4 min read
Oct 2, 2022it’s been awhileI haven’t written on here in a long time. I’m just back from three weeks in Italy, which was an amazing trip full of laughs and beautiful scenery but also a fair amount of challenges. I don’t think I can adequately describe all the feelings that came up during the…3 min read3 min read
May 9, 2022on angerSitting here with my knee elevated, ice pack in place, trying to address what I hope is a flare up of arthritis and not something more serious in my right knee. I desperately want to trade in the right side of my body for a new one. It’s where all…4 min read4 min read
Apr 18, 2022Shingles?! Okay, cool, cool.alternative title, when a bump in the road becomes bumps on your skin. Last Tuesday, while chatting with my mom on the phone, I touched my right side and discovered some red bumps that were definitely not supposed to be there. I ended my conversation with my mom and went…3 min read3 min read
Apr 9, 2022Bump in the roadThe last few weeks have had some of the lowest lows and highest highs I’ve experienced in awhile. I went from ‘huh my back hurts’ to ‘looks like you’ve had a progression’ to ‘you’re too healthy from clinical trial’ to ‘let’s see if these pills work for a bit.’ I…3 min read3 min read
